I need some prayers and I need to vent.

[Jesse James]

In the past 2 weeks i've attended 3 funerals. 2 weeks ago was a member of my current church, on friday was a member of my old church who was also one of my customers at the store where i worked, and then today was my babysitter who watched me from when i was in preschool til 2nd or 3rd grade. I was very close to her as a child and we remained close throughout my high school career. We kind of lost touch when i started college, but I saw her once in a while and we wrote to each other often. It's funny, the night before she died, I had a dream about her, and I thought, I'm gonna give her a call tomorrow. I never did, and then I got the news. It floored me. I think i was in denial until the viewing yesterday, and even then, I don't think I internalized that she died until the funeral today when i walked by the casket to pay my final respects. I'm not one for emotional scenes, but I just had to let it all out there. I couldn't stop myself from crying, and it wasn;t one of those quiet cries either. I got the crying hiccups and everything. My mother tried to comfort me but i just needed to be left alone. Every once in a while throughout today i would find myself just stopping to cry a little bit. I am also scared because i realize that my parents are moving up on the list and I don't know how i would cope with that.
Also today, the pastor who did the funeral services is someone who I was also very close to until i went to college, and I found out that 2 weeks ago one of his sons was killed in a car accident.
It's been a rough few weeks. and to top it all off, I won't be going to Los Angeles for the convention. The money just isn't there. Luckily nothing was paid for, and i used my frequent flier miles for the airfare, and they were easily redeposited into my account.

I would covet your prayers for the Sartell family (my babysitter's family) and the Fields family (the pastor's family).

[Jan]

Awww So sorry George:( Oh man that sucks...Trudy just lost her uncle..I just got off the phone w/her and told her your situation..She sends her best to u hon..I'll miss u this wk..but do hope to see u again soon! Hang in there my fellow East Coaster..We love ya! Jan

[DEE]

So sorry that you are having such a terrible week...Please, welcome anytime to vent and ask for stregth (that what we are all here for). Will def say some prayers for your friends families. Have to agree with you about your parents...had two good friends who just lost one of theirs and I feel so bad cause I just can't even imagine.
Sorry that you can't make the convention but things do come up...was great that you were able to redeposit your miles.
Will also say a big prayer for you and your piece of mind.
DEE

[Jan]

Yeah pls George if u need anything my friend just let us know..We're really gonna miss u this wk buddy..Happy u didn't lose any monies over any of it..I had to cancel the prior convention cos of medical stuff and my flight was non refundable but they did let me transfer it over to Trudy thank god and boy did she re pay me ever w/that amazing Providence show 1st row.And the convention my sister in law's sister was able to use and went in my place..Not a diehard but a Cher fan in training anyways! LOL.Hopin u can link up w/us maybe at Next NYC Gathering..if not definitely in Vegas for sure my friend! Hang in there..HUGS! JAN

[Jesse James]

I need to vent some more. this summer has been sucking big time. 1. I'm taking summer classes and the commute kicks my a$$. It's an hour and a half one way without traffic. I'm up at 5:30 every day, drive to school, and 2 nights a week i don't get home til 10:30 or 11 at night, so i'm always exhausted and i get at the most 5 hours of sleep on a good night. 2. someone who i've been friends with for quite a long time, and someone who i thought was one of my best friends, is getting married on saturday, and I didn't get invited to the wedding, so I'm kinda depressed/angry over that. All our mutual friends agree that he is an ass for not inviting me, which is small consolation. and 3. Someone who i just met last week and kinda clicked with was killed in a car accident yesterday, only 23 years old. I've had way too much death around me this summer and it really brings you down.

But on a brighter note, i did get a new car which I love and treats me way better than my old one. and tomorrow I will be heading down to Long Beach Island to spend a few days with my family and just relax. and I heard Mark Schulman gave the thumbs up to Cher in Vegas in 2008, so that pleases me.

Thanks for listening everyone it feels better to get everything down.

[Jan]

Oh man George...wish I had off to join u for Long Beach Island tomorrow babe in ur new wheels..Congrats! Really..Work is soooooo stressful:( too many hrs too little pay:( What else is new.God I'd love to be on beach w/ya! .SO sorry about your friend's passing..wow so young:( I feel for u..in such a short time I lost my dear friend in the 9/11 attacks..they never retrieved the body either:( ..he was really young too..(mid 30s)..and shortly therafter my young cousin died of breast cancer..then young Pam who most of u know..(cancer)then Dari also a sweetheart..way too young:( Then Surf:( Just sucks! MEGA!!!!!!!!!!! So u definitely have my sympathy my friend! It's hard! Very! You are in my prayers..as far as the wedding..hmm..maybe they're keeping it small due to financial George? Weddings cost a fortune..Maybe they're just limiting it? I would come out and ask him maybe cos it may be something like that I am sure if ur saying u were really good friends? Just a thought..As far as the early commute..I go thru same only am unfortunately up 4:30-4:45am each day..and yes it DOES suck MEGA!>>> But hey at least that's towards your schooling and will pay off one day..then u can hire me:) Hang in there buddy..BTW my co worker Cynthia went to Vegas last wk she said she already heard about Cher's upcoming 08 show while she was at Elton's show from one of the high rollers who got backstage to see Elton last wk..She's not even a Cher fan but came running over to tell me today..so yea It's on..we'll party up the wahzoo! Hang in there babe! Love ur fellow East Coast Cher bud! JAN